I really need to grow up. it's probably about time.

fuk everything i hate the world blahblahablahablahablaha selfish bad attitude carreeer job contribution to a stupid society blah whats the godamn point depression moody sex too much sex wasting time on superficial things computer. why do i have less friends now. cause you suck and you're crazy and always drunk ALWAYS DRINKING blah blahblh either i will disappear into nothing and no one will notice or i'll stop being lazy and passive and do something why is it even hard to make that decision but i hate being noticed but i also hate being unnoticed. one cup of full potential half empty. fuk i can't even spell any more eeennnyymoooorreee i don't even capitalize my "i's" need mental stimulation. mind is not being blown here. everyone is leaving all the time. things are like a web. i am stuck. myne own saliva.